i don't like the drugs(but the drugs like me).
Salutations.
My name's Jonan,
I'm an 18 year old with the lungs and liver of a 70 year old.
If by any unfortunate(for you) chance,
you get to know me more intimately,
you will find that I:
am quite the cynical little shit
am rather lazy,that's what everyone tells me anyway.
prefer night so much more over the day that I've made a few owl friends.
experiment with the stupidest things possible and still think I am reasonably intelligent.
have an ectoplasmic look during classes.
change brands of cigarettes as much as a girl changes clothes.
am an asshole in my own right,if you know what's good for you,you won't get close.
have an email address;jonan_yip@hotmail.com.
Misery loves company which is why I'm never alone.
Don't say I didn't warn ya.
Friday, April 24, 2009
i hit a wall.
I.
Really.
Miss.
You.
Guys.
Yeah balls. Body feels like it's been through a blending machine and food processor after training. But dear old Uncle M says the squats will increase endurance and thrusting power during intercourse swee LOL.
It's Varian Vs. Random Chinaman later in the afternoon :D
Seeya'll love.
7:33 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
fuck la.
I want/need to hurt someone.
What do you want to use your fists for?
I don't know myself.
K now I sound like some anime character +10.
7:35 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Gothic Chique
Sweet dreams are made of these,who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the Seven Seas,everybody's looking for something.
It's sad really,I won't ever get to see you again.
It was already hard enough.
11:41 PM
you are a fucking rollercoaster.
SILENCE FOR THE PEOPLE,THEY ALWAYS EAT THE HAND THAT BLEEDS.SILENCE FOR THE PEOPLE GIVE THE KIDS WHAT THEY NEED.
KILL YOUR GOD,KILL YOUR TV.
I feel like shit,it's 5am,I have to get up at 8 and Wk's stolen my bolster g'dammit.
5:12 AM
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
i never win :D
Heartstrings always get tangled up just like her hair after a messy fling.
Your heartbreak feels like the cut throat of a maestro who's right about to sing.
Yeah,the tears never fall but on the other hand she never calls.
Waking up to face the morning feels like a cruxifiction, get into your car and start the ignition.
To drive off a cliff and fall...but hey fuck,what's this?-the engine stalls.
No fault with the gearbox,the carbureater,you realise it's you who can't do it.
You've never been able to do anything at all.
4:56 AM
Saturday, April 04, 2009
The Days
And yeah,I still miss the days of not having a care in the world,going to drink after school,gambling under the void decks to pass time.
Mahjong sessions.
Lan outings.
Relics of the life I used to lead.
Remember the good ol' days my friends.
The good old days.
Oh yes!And we had Aston's near our school :D
8:16 AM
The Crunch Comes Down to This.
I'll make it short,sweet and simple.
I've officially been expelled from my school.(Temasek Polytechnic)
It came as a rather huge shock to me.I remember discovering my status in school(removed from course) and laughing like a fucking hyena for at least 10 minutes before trying to chain smoke the knowledge away.
Honestly,I was complacent.I didn't ever think I would be expelled from anywhere before.All my life,I've succeeded or scraped by through last minute studying,etc.Unfortunately I took it to the limit in poly,drinking in school,escaping classes,ditching lectures.
Yeah,I damn well paid the price.
I enjoyed my life in TP.It would be honest to say that it was one of the periods where I grew up and changed the most in polytechnic,even in that one year alone.I made plenty of new friends,several enemies(I'm not ashamed to say) and had a metamorphosis in my ideology.I can't bear to leave my school knowing that I've so much more people to meet,so many activities to do.I can't leave my classmates and my other friends in school behind.
It's been a long time since I've poured things out from my heart like this.I'm not afraid about my education ironically,I've always been a live for the moment,die tomorrow person for those whom know me well.What I'm worried and afraid about is the people,experiences and opportunities(not that kind la)I'll be leaving behind.
I spoke to the school counselor today,she told me there were many other options:NS,private uni,studying overseas etc.My parents were quite heartened to hear this which I'm rather glad for.
But in my heart,I'll always be a TP student.I know this sounds kinda gay but that's how I feel.I've already made a name and space for myself there and there's no way in blue freezing hell I'll be giving it up.
So to my classmates and everyone else who's worried,fear not.Jonan will remain in TP to irritate the living hell out of each and everyone of you,to cause fights and a ruckus when the Year 1 batch appears.
The only difference is that I'll be studying harder than ever when my appeal goes through.
And fuck all of that,TP will definitely be my school for the next 2 years I swear on it.I've always never been one to give an inch in love or war,and absolutely not in this case either.
So look forward to a new year ahead with all of you people next year and the drinks are on me the next time we hang out.
Either that or it's NS.(I'm just writing this so I don't sound too arrogant,don't wanna jinx the appeal)
Take care,Peace out and FUCK EXPULSION.
Jonan.
7:55 AM