Salutations.
My name's Jonan,
I'm an 18 year old with the lungs and liver of a 70 year old.
If by any unfortunate(for you) chance,
you get to know me more intimately,
you will find that I:
am quite the cynical little shit
am rather lazy,that's what everyone tells me anyway.
prefer night so much more over the day that I've made a few owl friends.
experiment with the stupidest things possible and still think I am reasonably intelligent.
have an ectoplasmic look during classes.
change brands of cigarettes as much as a girl changes clothes.
am an asshole in my own right,if you know what's good for you,you won't get close.
have an email address;jonan_yip@hotmail.com.

Misery loves company which is why I'm never alone. Don't say I didn't warn ya.

If only you'd just be mine and I would stop all of this shit totally,absolutely,spontaneously and whatever else shit you could name.

I'm so fucking high now that I'm speaking from the heart.

I never wanted to walk this road of life,it's just that my being was drawn to it(coupled by a few unpleasant experiences)until I started enjoying receiving and dishing out the pain.Sure,being with the guys is fun and I would give anything up for any of them if they were in trouble but at the end of the day,guess what?

I'm still alone.

Not in the sense of brotherhood,I've had plenty of that,but it's in the area of emotional exchange from another person.

And no,I do not dig guys so if any of you are thinking what I am assuming you are,kindly fuck off sayanora.(Wow,I can speak Japanese too.)

On a lighter note,life has been pretty much the same for me except that I miss certain people a whole lot more.(Shoutouts go to Jieying,Wong,Peiying,Yuting,Vincent,Ben Lu,Ben Ee,Leonard and the list goes on an on just like the wheels on the bus.)

Max not really cause I meet the asshole on a regular basis.

I think I'm experiencing several personal issues in my life(god this so sounds like an advert for alcoholics anonymous)such as bouts of self loathing,bloodlust and a disregard for the moral standards I've set for myself.

Jumping to current affairs,the government is tightening it's noose on us smokers,raising fines and increasing the number of spotchecks.All we can do is just roll with the punches and fight back in our own little ways(support your local malaysian/indonesian cigarette dealer!).

Times are changing,I may be a fucking bastard and I admit that.

But one thing that won't ever evolve,morph or transmogrify(to use a Harry Potter word)is the fact that we suit each other like um,peas in a pod?

Twins in a womb?

Er,Moonlight to a werewolf?(Failed metaphor)

All I know is that we belong with each other.

But the way I am,it's time to face the truth.

I will never be with you.

Yes kinda corny/cheesy(whichever you prefer)I know.

But that's just the way I feel.

By the way,I've noticed that I've used the word 'but' quite a number of times.

What-thefuck-ever,Jonan out.